If you could change something, would you choose a life of mystery...?

 "...Would you like to be anonymous, unknown, so that nobody knows anything about you, who are you, what do you do?"

 Question. Simple, uncomplicated, and it burst into the ground. It burst into the ground and above all gave food for thought. 

When I was just starting to be active in the internet a few years ago, I wanted someone to notice me. Whoever, I just dreamed that my efforts and the time sacrificed to creating everything I do wouldn't be wasted. It wasn't easy at first, but when people finally got interested, I knew it was okay that I was going in the right direction so that my efforts would be appreciated. 

As time went by, so did people become more and more interested in my activities. Both those who were just curious, those who liked me, and those who looked for every, even the smallest reason to hate. There were fans and people looking for a hole in the whole, and I still did my job without worrying about those who tried to make me sad. 

Over the past few years of online activity I have experienced a lot of good and bad. There were compliments, nice messages, lots of questions, new acquaintances, willingness to meet, requests of interviews... But there was also a lot of hate, harassment, impersonation, gossip, stalking and an insistent desire to invade my private life. It seems a lot for one person, right? 

Starting in 2015, I had the silent hope that at least a few people would be interested in what I do, because in the end I don't do it just for myself, but I never expected that in 2020 every my step will be watched by thousands of people. It seems like a fairy tale, but each medal has two sides, everything has its pros and cons. After all, would I like to go back to what was before and become someone completely anonymous who I once was? 

No, I wouldn't. Although I would like to erase the terrible experiences that were also connected to this, there were definitely more good ones that wouldn't have happened to me otherwise. Without it, I wouldn't be the person I am now. I wouldn't be myself.